29/06/05

Ok so it's another day. I went to my therapist today. That was all right. For once I told her how I actually feel. Which is depressed at the moment. I honestly (swear to God) don't know why I'm so depressed. She told me that if this has been going on for so long (a year now) maybe I should go see the psychiatrist and she will put me on medication. The second I told my dad this he said absolutely no way. I don't really know what I want. I just wish all this would just go the fuck away already. I can't stand being this way. But whatever I'm not really in the mood to write more about the subject.

Things about my personality:

I'm affected very easily by other people's actions. Too easily.

I get upset easily.

I don't take stress well, at all.

I have mood swings.

I care about the problems of the world to the point that they affect me in my everyday life (most of the time).

I don't understand how the American people could be so selfish, stupid and ignorant as to elect President George W. Bush.

I get angry easily. But it goes away easily as well.

It's hard for me to tell people how I really feel. I prefer to not acknowledge there's a problem instead of having to argue about things. Or I simply swallow my pride.

I talk a lot but do little.

I'm very passionate about things and it's hard for me to change my mind.

I can be very phony, it's just a way for me to avoid arguing.

I realize things but I still won't change (like I know that depending on drugs for fun is stupid, pathetic, etc. but I won't quit).

I tend to be a pessimist. When I was little I was just the opposite, but at some point in my life I changed.

I'm very shy and antisocial (this is also new, I wasn't like this until a few years a go).

I hate myself often.

I hate my physique.

I eat a lot when I'm bored, depressed, etc.

I analyze everything, and always tend to think the worst (pessimist).

Wow this is sad. I read over the list and everything seems to be bad. How pathetic.