I've decided to make a list of the pros and cons of smoking pot, this is because of the conversation I had yesterday with my therapist.

Ok so here are the PROS:

It makes me more sociable, much more sociable.

It makes me laugh(sometimes).

I like it.

It makes me think about stuff I usually don't think about.

When I'm with someone who's also stoned it makes us completely compenetrated(don't know if that's a word in english but whatever).

I have fun.

CONS:

Well now that I've been smoking for a while I don't get the same effect I had at the beginning(obviously), I don't laugh as much.

Sometimes I act like a complete idiot when I'm stoned and people notice it.

It's not good to depend on a drug to be able to have fun(duh!).

It's not good for my health.

If I'm depressed and I smoke I get more depressed when the effect goes.

It gives me lots of problems to concentrate.

I have less memory(like I can't remember something I did yesterday), I don't know if that's because of smoking but that's what it seems.

I've had a shit school year, and that's partly thanks to smoking.

Again, I can't depend on a drug to have compenetrated conversations with people, to open up, etc. Because what will I do if I don't have it?

There are people that I only talk to when I'm really stoned.

In the long run it's only going to hurt me.

It makes me tired.

etc. etc. etc.

Ok so the list of cons is bigger than the one of pros, I think the answer is obvious. But then again, I'm not going to quit unless I really want to, wich I don't right now. Partly because I think it would be too hard. Specially because the summer has just began. This is pathetic. Today is one of the days that I hate myself.